I’m racing through The Summing Up. I fell behind leaving it at work, I fell behind when we went to California; I’m doing a novel revision next month. Not NaNoWriMo because I don’t hate myself this year but I wanted to do a revision this fall, I had a friend thinking about doing NaNoWriMo, it just seemed like the right time. And I’m not really looking forward to it. I haven’t been in novel revision mode for over a year and a half; maybe two years. The first draft of this one was during a NaNoWriMo; I edited it for like a month and then got sick of it and put it off for a major rewrite then forgot about it and ended up starting over on page one almost a year after I did the first draft. When a piece of writing gets abandoned, it sort of dies. The energy of it dies, but that energy is like four dimensional and it’s sometimes exactly what’s needed. Unless it’s something you put aside for long time because it sucks and no matter how much you tinker with it, you can’t make it work. I learned the term “drawer novel” from something back in my teens—like, pre-college but maybe post-high school—and I’ve always had it in my head. Until I realized if I kept putting something aside and maintaining energy to it, even if it was a short story, it was slowing me down. I have a lot of regrets about focusing on a novel in my second year of MFA school, but it did progress my writing the best way it was going to get progressed. Focusing on short stories would’ve given me more variety and basically ensured I broke ass until I got one published somewhere for once, I mean, come on—but my writing wouldn’t have developed. And I just realized I’ve been writing The Stop Button for longer than I have written prose fiction, longer than I’ve done academic writing. Even though I’ve never really thought of it as writing. The energy isn’t with the writing of the responses, it’s with the consumption of the material, it’s occasionally—and was a lot back in the olden blogging days—about tinkering with the user experience of everything except the responses. The responses have always gotten a clean, straightforward presentation on The Stop Button. Hell, I don’t know what I’m thinking with Summing-Up’s theme. It’s kind of crazy. Readership on here’s higher than I thought it’d be too. Weird. But what was the point. Oh, the novel revision. I wanted to write about it—or at least I planned on writing about it when I had the idea a few months ago—but I have no idea how I’d do it. I also want to get it done in November because I’m basically averaging, at the end of October, the second full month of Summing-Up, one Maugham book a month. I think I can do one Maugham book a month. So it’s a good goal. I won’t be doing Of Human Bondage. That book took me forever to read. But if I’m going to do this serious work on the novel, I need the dedicated time. Hence, November. I think I’m hoping I’ll just find a tone like I did with the Maugham responses. I’ve launched other blogging projects in addition to The Stop Button and Comics Fondle before and Summing-Up is definitely working out better. Even if I could care less about the user experience of the theme. I don’t know. Maybe it’s because I write so much of it in MacJournal. It’s either written in MacJournal, Drafts, or on Notepad++ on a PC. Only MacJournal gives it a distinct, familiar inter face. Or maybe it’s because, for the first time in ten years, I’m typing black on white. Six hundred and forty-seven words without any paragraphs? It looks impressive, even in Helvetica. And even though the experiences of writing Summing-Up are going to affect Comics Fondle very soon, the extended posts on Comics Fondle are what got me thinking about doing Summing-Up in the first place. Much longer final post of the day than I expected to write. It’s Maugham… I want to come back to this post in a year or whatever—next November, for NaNoWriMo (no)—and find three sentences I like and had forgotten about writing. It’s somewhat easy, as I don’t copyedit my blogs, which is occasionally a problem.